I don’t think I was very tough before I put myself “out there.” I still don’t think I’m that tough. But I’m kind of tough. I've learned you can either rev it up like you got the mushroom on Mario Kart, or you can keep going the speed limit and experiences will eventually come to you.
I haven’t put myself out there in every way possible. I haven’t asked boys out on dates, auditioned for infomercials or gone out as a Harajuka girl. But I am pursuing what I was made to do one step at a time. For me, it’s somewhere in the realm of creativity and encouragement. There’s a lot of wiggle room for how to hone in on giving that purpose, but I think I’m in the right area (even if I’m walking around with my eyes closed). I have a book that came out about a month ago. I didn’t realize how tough the entire process made me until now. It’s hard to measure progress until we glimpse at our old normal and compare it with our new normal.
This is my version of brave: I asked agents if they’d represent me; I asked friends and acquaintance if they would feature me on their blogs if it got published; I asked specific friends to tweet about it; I asked for endorsements; I asked people to spend their money on it; I asked people I hardly knew to come to my book signing where I gave a speech; I got a bad review (One line stated, "No, Becky, sample shoes at department stores DON’T fit me, nor do they fit a lot of petite women."); I got rejections; I got braver.
These things are now normal.
Asking, emailing, getting rejected, getting accepted!, getting feedback, getting nothing and getting used to it all has given me a leather hyde I didn’t know I had in me. This is what growth looks like for me right now and I’m not going to shortchange it by comparing it to what it could look like, should look like, what somebody else accomplished or what anybody else expects.
Be bold. Be brave. Put yourself out there. Your version might have higher stakes. Maybe it’s sending an email or asking for help.
The experiences that come to us usually aren’t the ones we want. Go to them. Run towards the danger.